Stressy stress
Posted on Thursday May 17 2012 in life
My life is currently revolving around maths even more than I'd expected. It's making me incredibly stressed, like "my chest hurts and I'm struggling not to cry" kind of stress. I'm far more relaxed at night, for some reason: yesterday I stopped studying at 9pm saying that was me done for the day, ended up starting again at midnight and working until just after two in the morning(yeah, my sleeping pattern's a bit fucked, but I don't need to get up earlier than 10am until like September so it's fine). That time was actually really productive, I managed to figure out a couple of things that have confused the hell out of me all year.It led me to wonder though, can stress be good for us? Obviously, the amount of stress that I have at the moment(during the day, at least) isn't really healthy, but do we need just a little bit to focus on our task, or would our lives be easier if we weren't stressed at all?
Well, our lives would probably be easier if we were completely relaxed all the time, as long as we were all people who could just get things done.
Thing is, I'm not. I need the big scary exam to get me stressed and kick me into properly studying, I need someone or something to pressure me into things I can't be bothered doing. However, this may be partly(or completely) because I get very stressed very easily, and it could just be my brain's way of coping with it, rather than me melting down completely: that used to happen a lot before this year, when I seemed to subconsciously realise that the best solution was to channel my stress into productive things rather than panic.
It reminds me of how people say it's a good thing to be nervous before an exam, since if you're nervous you're more likely to doubt how well you're doing and to think about questions harder and more carefully, write more, and spend a lot more time checking your answers at the end if you've got time left. That certainly applies to me, in small amounts. If I'm slightly nervous about this maths exam on Monday, I'll take my time with it, check everything carefully, and make a lot less silly mistakes than if I was very nervous, which at the moment is looking more likely, or not nervous at all, which isn't going to happen unless I go in drunk. In fact, alcohol might make me more nervous. Unless I had a lot, in which case I couldn't sit the exam because I'd be busy falling up the steps to the school entrance. Somehow, I don't think taking alcohol to my exam is a good plan.
Unless I use it to get the invigilators drunk...
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